Ayumi Hamasaki's TeamAyu Diary Nov. 8-10, 2009

Hi there friends! I was gonna wait for Ayu to update one or two more times before posting this, but it's been four days and I'm impatient, so here ya go, everyone! :)

Two words, folks: Doggie Sweaters. Oh yes, this post has doggies in sweaters.

And some other stuff too. but DOGGIE SWEATERS!!

Same rules apply as always - feel free to send corrections and don't repost them anywhere. Enjoy!


8 November 2009 6:14 AM

Chonsan here, doing plain old desk work. Good evening.
Oh wait, maybe it's good morning now, huh???
I've been going between staring at the computer and the TV screen for hours. While all this is going on, my phone has been on speaker the whole time for phone meetings with my staff.
I'm all dizzy from these high-level electromagnetic waves attacking. lol
So wait, what's going on here...?
Guess what everyone...
It's Countdown Live Setlist Planning Time!!
The God of Setlists (not Zin-san*, lol) is raining down upon me.
And what a nice feeling it is♪
This year, it seems I** will be having my 10th countdown live show in Yoyogi.
For 10 years consecutively, I have experienced the end of the year at that Holy Ground, Yoyogi.
Even so, every year, every single year, I'm told that there aren't enough tickets for the demand, and this keeps happening, so I truly truly thank you all.
Even feeling like that, with this show having that <310th Anniversary<3 celebration feeling, I think it's gonna be a very crowded show!!!!!!!!!!!
I hope you all really really look forward to it♪
Oh yeah, um, today, running errands, I was talking to Maro on the phone, and Maro was singing his blog entry's title... well, it was a Michael Jackson song, and if you think about it you can figure out which song it is, but back to the phone, he was singing that song for me in very high spirits. lol***
I had planned to ask the song's title, but once he sang it, it came to me. lol
Well then. Today again, the OneByOnes are feeling relieved, one by one.☆
So, Chon-san is figuring out the story of the concert after this.
I watched a bunch of old DVDs again today, but you know what? Marionette is absolutely excellent. It gives me goosebumps.

*Zin used to call Ayu "Hama no Ko" (Beach Baby) and she called him "Kami no Ko" (Little God/God's Child). They haven't used these nicknames in awhile, but fans who read her blogs from last year might remember. :)
**Ayu calls herself "WATAKUSHI" here. Interpret that how you will.
***First off, this is an awkward run-on sentence that jumps around even in Japanese. Secondly, the title of Maro's blog entry is "DEKA DEKA DEKA DEN DEN, DEKA DEN DEN, DEKA DEN DEN DEN DEN" which is (SPOILER ALERT) his clever way of spelling out the iconic bass line from "Smooth Criminal." (OK SPOILER'S OVER NOW)

"Tsuyosa wo Kudasai. (Strength please.)"
9 November 2009 5:44 AM

I said that in a CM for a drink back in the day.♪
With a wounded face, unkempt short blond hair, and a bandage stuck on my nose.
In the background, "moshimo tatta hitotsu dake negai ga kanau nara~*" is playing~, ah, the old days.
At the time, I was... 22 years old!! Daaannggg. lol
I know what you're thinking, what's with this talk all of a sudden? Well today, Minazo has a bandage like that on his nose, in the same spot.
When we saw it, me and Bancho both reacted to it at exactly the same time, saying
"Strength Please!!!"
We're so bad. lol.
Back then, I felt like I did nothing but hurt people who were important to me.
I probably didn't practice what I was preaching regarding strength.
As for how I am now... I think I started understanding the meaning of "strength" a long time ago, at least more than the me in that commercial.
But by my own measure, of course.
Only someone who notices all the small wounds, pains, and cries, only someone who can face that without turning their eyes away, really has the strength of living.
Becoming strong is definitely not something to be taken lightly.
On top of everything I've understood, today again I had thoughts that the face of an important person to me is something I'll absolutely always hold fast to, until the very end.
I would do anything to that effect.
And to that effect, Pino-san likewise has such a curious face.

Papico helps out in the fine art of totem pole creation.

But, of course, regardless of what I say, they would always rather be next to each other.
They'll always want to be next to each other.

Isn't that right? <3

Love ya, loves <3

*"If you could only have one wish granted...", lyrics from "NEVER EVER".

10 November 2009 7:32 AM

the night was a long one~.
What a day, it was still dark at 5:30 this morning~.
The sun came up about fifteen minutes later though.
I thought I'd be grateful for such a long night since I've been working, but I was all alone in my house so I was thinking, "please hurry up and come, morning!"... I'm kinda waffling on whether night is good or bad, huh? lol
So anyway, even though it was the middle of the night, it's natural for me to pass through this sort of scenery.

If you really look, and if you really think about it, Tokyo is amazing.
This is a city that never sleeps, too.
And we have to survive in our own concrete jungle today!!
Yesterday, my guide post to live, a very very important person, saw "This Is It" and sent me an e-mail with their thoughts.
And because of it... I really need to work hard!!!!

10 November 2009 10:08 PM

This morning, when I wrote "very very important person," a strangely high amount of you sent me your feelings on that. A number of you were in a very very good mood about it, lol.
But the person I was writing about is a woman who's older than me.♪
I could live my whole life and never catch up to her. And I don't want to try to catch up.
I always want to walk forward looking at her back as a guidepost for living.*
No matter what might come up, no matter what I meet, even if I can't talk to her, I believe in her, and my feelings of love for her will never change.
The days when she & I can laugh together are definitely coming again soon.
So it's oookkkkaaaaayyyy--------------!!!!!!!!!
On the days I can't see her, I become so dull, so the next time I've been able to see her, I won't want to talk.
So today, once again, I'll be living with all my might. You know?
I've recently been very cold to you all, but I'm always hoping that I can send warm days to your hearts and bodies.☆

*This recalls the lyrics to Ayu's song "walking proud" almost directly.