Ayumi Hamasaki's TeamAyu Diary 7/9-13/09

SO. For some reason LoKi wants me to translate Ayumi Hamasaki's blog, the original Japanese text of which is found on her TeamAyu fanclub website. A few things to note here:

1) It is against TeamAyu's terms of service to post the original Japanese text here so I will never do this.

2) I don't own the photos, Ayu & her management do, so I will never put a Gaijin Kanpai! watermark on them. That said, please don't repost them.

3) I'll be posting these in batches. This batch is July 9th to the 13th, 2009. I'm already very far behind so her blogs between the 13th and 18th won't be posted. I'll be better next time.

4) I'm trying to go for accuracy, so not only will ayu's crazy text sizes & emoticons be emulated whenever possible, translation notes & clarifications will be added when necessary.

Click on the "read more" link for the translations. Enjoy!


09 July 2009

Today is my sixth and last show here!!!!!
I'm attacking it head-on with everything I've got------o/~
Well, whether you wanna believe that or not is your choice☆
Again today, I'll take a deep breath,
lift my head, and sing with my entire body.

My train
10 July 2009 10:56 AM

...I missed it.
I couldn't meet you guys....
I'm so disappointed...
I wanted to see you... (v_v)
To all of you who waited for me, I'm really sorry.
So now this defeated Chon-san* is in the car on the way back home to Tokyo.
Nagoya was awesooommmme.
It felt like a grand finale, but this tour isn't quite over, is it?
The energy seriously made me feel like it might be.
Waaaah, so much smiling, so much crying.
Sorry for being all crazy up & down like that...
Okay, I'm done now.
My dinner today!


Minazo was right next to me thinking very very hard at that moment,
going "ira--!" a few times for some reason. lol

*Ayu calls herself Chon-chan or Chon-san sometimes. Long story, running joke with her dancer Zin.
**There's fish called Ayu. It's like this river trout thing. So Ayu's eating Ayu, get it?

So very me...
11 July 2009 04:21 AM

Whether I've done something or not done something, maybe it's sad, but I've kind of gotten used to when people make a fuss over speculations & guesses, and I just walk off somewhere far away, preparing myself for the worst, but I never backtrack because the progress I've made thus far has to continue.
This foundation is always there: I alone know the truth about myself, what I know, what I think.
After this, that'll still be true.
No matter what, as far as my own life and my choices, I have confidence in everything I do.

The chance of rain on the 13th has dropped really fast, it seems, so I think I have an idea of what everyone in TA wants(*^_^*)
I heard you guys made whole bunch of Teruterubouzu*.(T_T)
All of us decided to do it every day too.
It was destined, I think.
Fate can't be changed, but you know, fate can change.
No doubt about it, TA's power can reach the sky and beyond.

Even though I do things my own way, no matter what
Even though I look at the same scenery, at the same velocity
I survive because I have decided.

Connect our hands, so we'll never be separated.

*Teruterubouzu look like tissue paper ghosts that people in the USA make on Halloween. In Japanese culture, they're supposed to ward off bad weather.

13 July 2009 5:34 AM

made a very scary looking teruterubouzu
so me & everyone told him
never to make one again.

Of course, he wasn't trying to be mean on purpose, he's just really terrible at making teruterubouzu.

I actually should say that today, seriously...
I'm feeling really good!!!!! Totally!!!

Unfortunately everyone in TA can't participate, but everyone in TA who can participate, all the dancers, so many of the staff members, all have one thought.
My precious treasures... I can hear you all say "It's okay"(*^_^*)